New Year, New Perspective, Better Me.

Do not get me wrong on the one hand I have had some truly fantastic moments throughout this year which I am amazingly grateful for. 

However on the other hand it has unequivocally been the worst year of my life thus far. 

A tad dramatic? I wish.

It has been a whirlwind of emotions this year and my feelings have been knocked, broken and bruised. I have lost some of the most important people in my life this year and have had to spend the first Christmas of my 24 years without my Nan and Grandad. To say it was difficult would be an understatement.  

Resulting in most of the year being spent with a very negative mindset.

(It's been hard not to when practically every month has had some form of bad news.)

Normally I'm completely on board with this time of year but the festive spirit has been pretty non-existant in me this year. I've tried to keep up appearances but I just have not felt the festive joy.

I'm now preparing for the new year and normally I'm all for it making resolutions and celebrating. I'm all for the "new year new me hype," though of late I have found myself questioning why it has to be a "new me"?

I do not want a new me this year what I want is a better version of me.

A version without self-doubt. A version who doesn't worry what other people think. A version who goes for what she wants. Most of all a version of me with less negativity.

What I want is a new perspective that involves more positive thinking- that will be the only if any resolution I make this year.

After a year of negativity I'm ready for some positivity and that needs to start with myself.

New Year. New Perspective. Better Me.